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Monday, February 8 yucks yucks yucks, me cannot stand lianz or lianz-wanna-be or just lian-ified. you should knw! & i admit im being an all time sour grape but whatever the shitz is i rather get myself out of the picture. like, cause im sour i rather give up then fight. i dont care wht's the truth or wht's being real. all i knw is my feelings are real and i hate those effing feeling. i mean it's not my fault i cant control right. it's not my fault im so easily jealous. as much as i shld close one eye, i feel that you shld do sth abt it. perhaps cause im alr in a bad mood recently. and i purposely attitude. but you like dont give a damn. or still feel fine about us. then the more annoyed i am kind. besides you really do knw alot abt her wht. you cant stop talking abt her too like hello i thought not very close. everything can rem so detail. like wth. i knw la very pretty la. yucks to me but guys are the same. and instead of throwing all the blames on her we shld just look at ourselves. are we really being happy now? we havent even had a proper quarrel yet. and all these shites are just stuck in our mind. & we pretend we're aokay when we meet/talk. ohkay im not tht two face. i knw i somehow show my unhappiness attitude and and all but doesnt say much about it which is quite annoying. k whatever. i dont even think you enjoy time being spent wit me. you'd rather sleep than to entertain me. i dont unstd why you can sleep so much. then whn it comes to soccer&mj you can stay awake. like hello prioritise. im not part of it tht's all. we're so dry now. im sure you can feel like cant you do sth abt it it's like driving me crazy like damn eff just leave it alone i feel like im alone anyway. i knw nth abt wht's going on in your life and youre clueless abt me. rah idk wtf im saying now seriously ugh like love it fake totally i cant stand those love whn you say love but i feel nothing i rather not hear it Everytime I leave my heart turns grey. Friday, February 5
 HEHEHEHEHE! This photo is so so so cute, it brightens up my day :DFinally, I've started studying! But, looking at the ACQ notes makes me feel like vomit blood. Almost every page I read I will be swearing & cursing. Seriously, the notes is so mimishitty incomplete and awfully structured. I can't even concentrate on studying cause it's just damn gross. YKNW? Let me quote one. "Listen to lecture/explanation, question & answer, discussion, think & reason out and understand and summarise the following demolition methods" -.- 4 ANDS in a sentence, how cool. So in short, the teacher just meant "figure it yourself". Wha't's worse is that certain things just dont make sense. They just pop one sentence out which makes you go HUH WTF??? Damn kns right, reading all these shites are seriously killing me. I'm like reading half a topic and jumping to another topic kind. Zzzzzzzzzzzzz. I HATE ACQ NEHNEHPOOPOO. I'm gonna do selective reading now! I hope what I read = what's coming out for test. Grrrrr. Nobody nobody nobody Nobody nobody Nobody Loves Me Everytime I leave my heart turns grey. Friday, January 22 Lookzzz, I thought this was quite freaky.. haha like why?? Lim and Jacez Lee Jing Yi are now friends. Lim and Yu Ee Ting are now friends. Lim and Bernice Lee Jing Yi are now friends. Lim and Kai Zhi Khaw are now friends. Lim and Wei Khai are now friends. Lim and Reven Oh Gen Heir are now friends. Lim and Yih Lim are now friends. Lim and Khoo Jing Yi are now friends. Lim and Yu Jing Lee are now friends. Lim and Lee Jing Yi are now friends Anyway, I can't decide what I should study in future. I like animals, I want to work with them in future. I suppose they're the only ones I can relate to. But, I'm stupid & not to mention I don't have science background. I doubt I can get into any animal related degree courses overseas. & then, I'll have no future in it. SUPER SIANZ. So the only way out seems to be, just take a local course related to buildings. & then I can work part-time or volunteer at shelters or something along that line. In short, it means my job in future should be building-related & spend my free times / weekend at shelters or taking part-time animal related courses for fun. I'm sad :( If I were to study building related courses, I think I'll go NUS. & if NUS doesnt want me, I shall pursue my animally courses? Sounds good? :X I've been eating alot these days, shitz, how? shitz, how? :C My mummy said I looked like I'm 3mths pregnant. THAT bad :< I should stop eating those finger food right. These days, durian pancakes, sushi, shilin have been calling out for me. I should ignore their calls! :/ Everytime I leave my heart turns grey. Sunday, January 17 Could it be that nothing's gonna change? Hello, the days turned out slightly better than expected. Then again, I'm not very happy with it. Like I said (did I?), we never learn to be satisfied about anything :X All I can say is, I hope things will get better. I'm trying to find myself right now. Ohyes you didn't get me wrong, I have lost myself for almost 20years. Anyhoots, I'm so tired! Good? :) Everytime I leave my heart turns grey. Friday, January 15 It's friday today! Usually I'm pretty excited about weekends, but this week isn't so :( I suppose the subsequent weeks as well, sigh! Game tomorrow & work on Sunday. I brought all these upon myself eh? Zzzz. what what what I'm feeling inside, does anyone even understands? Sometimes I wish things were as good as before. Rah. I want to party every night! But I'm sleeping so much & there isnt much activities for me, hurhur. Everytime I leave my heart turns grey. Tuesday, January 12 Hello! :D I've no idea why but I ate alot today! Apparently, I'd sandwich, twister fries, soya bean curd, doughnuts, durian pancake, yogurt icecream & shilin chicken. this is so OMG right D: I should start dieting soon so that I can fit into my uniform. Anyhoots, the thought of the size of my uniform annoys me. Like, why can't I get a bigger size? Isn't it more important that I feel comfortable in it? Now I'll probably look like I'm oversize for it. Hur :( I kinda dread work, yknw those awkward leftout shitty feelings. So, I'll probably work once a week. Oh, I kinda dread U21 too. I can't play anymore. I'm in the team for the sake of being in the team kind. Suckzzzz. I don't like all these feelings, Eeeee! :( Everytime I leave my heart turns grey. Friday, January 8 And we were just kids in love The summer was full of mistakes I don't feel like sleeping somehow. & I feel that I'm drifting to the wrong path. What's wrong with me :( I should stop, I don't know what I'm doing. Grrrr. Feel like having late nights out :/ Everytime I leave my heart turns grey. |